Letting Go

When God called Brett into this ministry I really struggled with what it would look like for our family. Brett was also struggling with this. I didn’t want to give up my time with them. Monday is my baby day! The day I keep my three grandsons. Who knew how many of those days would have to be given up. And not only that, but the rest of our family’s. They are my (our) life, every last one of them. I was holding on very tightly.

We arrived in Tupelo in time for the evening service.  Kyle was speaking on Abraham and Isaac, about giving our life to God, giving it all back to him. I listened as he told about Abraham placing Isaac on the alter. Abraham waited so long for Isaac to arrive, and now he was being asked to sacrifice him. By faith, he gave his son back to God. And God provided and blessed him. God was testing him. He wanted Abraham to sacrifice Isaac in his heart.

I sat in my seat with my head bowed, wrestling with God.  I knew what He wanted me to do, but it was so hard. This was not easy, but I gave my family, as well as all that I was clinging to, back to God.

After the service, we left right away. I felt sad, it hurts to let go. When we got in the car I checked my phone and had a message from my daughter-in-law Jaimene. She said,“You run after the Lord and Brett so Lee & I and our boys can watch and learn from you and Brett and see what it truly is to run after the Lord and share his love with others. We will always be here to love on when you are home.”   My heart was overwhelmed. I showed Brett the text and we cried. God used Jaimene to let me (& Brett) know that it was  OK. God has got this, even though I still did not know what it would look like! Jaimene had no idea where we were or what we were doing when she sent that text. I still can’t believe the timing of it all. Tupelo is now my favorite city!